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Last night Jeffrey Landmeter commited suicide i think.. he said it was because of his gf and he emailed his english friends an email last night which i am posting now... just letting ppl know.
Email:
Hello everyone, 24-November-2008
This is my goodbye from you and this world, I woud like to thank
everyone who has supported me in my live. This is a message to the
people who knew me and some way to explain my actions. If your yust a
visitor then ignore this email and delete it.
Well im sure people are wondering why? Well reason why I have chosen
this path is that there was simply to much sadness in my life, to much
for my mind to bear to live on. You might think well you yust give up
then? Well no I dident give up I tried to make something of it but then
again my sadness and happiness came from one person. We made a agreement
a whyle ago she dicided to cut the deal short for 13 times to brake her
promises and went on with a other person behind my back and lied many
times about it. She dusent care well and im only one that dus care. A
bit of a regretfull situation isent it? I cant really tell everything in
detail but basicly I promist that person I woudt think of doing it if
she did try to be atleast be there for me. Well She dident care she said
I could drop dead. She even suggested ways how to do it and laft about
it with her frends.
Truth is before she broke up with me she alreaddy did it like 2 times
each month, even hiding my existence and her relationship with me from
the world. Even her parents said "I need to know how to do it because
what will I do when your not here anymore" So ye I noticed what was
going around my back. I tried to set things right but in the end it was
all thaught up plan..
Id like to say sorry to all my frends that atleast cared for me enof to
expres some effort for me and woud like to thank you for giving me that.
I wish you all the best in life and hoop you can succeed your dreams and
goals in life. I made promises to some of you and I won't be able to
keep some of them. Im deeply sorry. To viperpray: Anime Resource is
yours ownership information will be send to you in a different email.
To my relatives, my father. Well im sorry that im gonne do this, life
seems so hopeless at this point and wel only person I wanted to care
dident and backstabed me like no one did before. I am deeply sorry to
leave you again after not seeing you after so many years. I gues it was
never ment to be? I wish you the best of luck with your wife I hope your
wife dusent endure so much pain anymore as she is in now. By doing this
I hope I do not trouble your mind to much if so im terrible sorry but I
hope you respect my decision.
To my sister, well Selena I gues you where right all along, tho love
makes blind right? Hope you don't hate me to much for doing this. I can
onistly say I never liked you that much. Cause I always had to be on my
feet to see if your actions dident have a double meaning to it. But
since you where right gues you where only trying to protect me I thank
you for caring enof to try and help me atleast. And I can onistly say I
love you for that and will never forget you. And thank you for all your
effort but its no use if a person lies from the start in your face right
you know that now aswel since youve seen it with your own eyes. Also im
not sure what you will do with my remains but promis me one thing,
please do not let anyone close to my final place that has betraid or
hurt me in life. Not my other sisters not my mother not my loved one or
her frends or familie I hope you will protect me from them.
Also Selena I have a request for you, this is a note for our biological
mother hope you will send it to her since I have no means of contacting
her.
Hello Monique well this is my end, I hope your happy now as you said
that you woud dance on my grave and spit on it when I woud die. Remember
ill be waiting in hell for you. And then ill be your living hell for
eternity can't wait to see you there.
All I can think of for the moment is a person that is having a happy
life without me, and wants to complete ignore my existence and dusent
care if I see the daylight or not, she was the only person that coud
stop me from my actions, so don't feel bad if you tried you coud never
stop me from doing this. And im greatfull you have tried but like I said
there was only one person who coud stop me. Im leaving this place to
stop the pain the sadness and I hope there is no hell or heaven. Cause
with my current mind even heaven is a living hell for me. I hope my
existence will simply stop and theres no future anymore. But I gues ill
be somewhere soon or not ill have the answer soon enof. For me true love
is when you say to the person who is most dear to you. I will always be
there for you, I will never stop loving you, Ill die for you, If you die
or go away ill follow you anywhere. I exchanged those vows with my loved
one yet for me it was real, now that person never existed I shoudt aswel
cause its a promis.. for ever. Last time I saw her she wear our
engagement ring and the hart I gave her on her birthday as it was
nothing special yust some expensif metals. For me when you engage its a
promis for a lifetime and I will never see a promis as yust a piece of
metal. 06-06-2008 was our engagement date gues she dident meen it.
I have bin lied to so much in my life, and now it yust continues and
continues it makes me deeply sad so sad that im not my original self
anymore yust a shell with sadness in side. My loved on has taken on a
relationship with someone else behind my back and well confessed to me
about it. This has broken my heart in a state it will never be the same
I have a aking feeling of grabbing a nife at the moment as we speek to
do it. But as a last respect I write this for you people hope you
apriciate some last tekst from me.
I love you my frends and my family and wherever I might go, I will never
forget you gy's. Also I know how hard it will be to even understand why
well. Ill include a letter and chatlogs from the conversation with my
loved one hope that clears things a bit up why I am so sad but I coudt
never really say what I wanted to say in the chatlogs cause I dident
wanted to make things worse. Your free to read it however it will be in
dutch, so my english frends use a translator or something else. You see
if your soalpartner promis you to give it a try 13 times and brakes it
each time it brakes your mental state and well mine is really shattered
I was alone for 17 years that girl was the only one who gave me hope she
bashed my hope down my throat I have exitity attacks now, I can bairly
breath I cant sleep I cant go on like this. im deeply sorry.
And well to the Anime Resource users, I was working on a new version
sorry I wasent able to finish it to display it to you gy's.
Tonight... Farewell everyone Jeffrey Landmeter.
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